Last year at this time I was…..hopeless. There I was pregnant, turning 40 and living in a trailer. I have really accomplished a lot this year! I made a human, moved to new digs, had some success and some failure–overall not a bad year!
This birthday this year did not fill me with the same dread and denial of last. I hardly gave it a thought–then the other day while doing my daily chores this thought popped into my head, “20 years ago you were 21!” I remembered that weekend, not your usual “drink-fest.” I was the Maid of Honor at my best friend’s wedding and my G’ma B made me a sheetcake with recycled 21 candles on top. I know I am not the first to conceive of the idea of writing a letter to my young self–but I have been thinking about Sara at 21 and I wish I could tell her these things…
- Embrace being Sara–don’t feel bad about it, perfect it! (go get the Lasix and gastric bypass early! Shed those shackles.)
- Don’t live in the past, it didn’t break you.
- Follow your dreams–don’t worry about how long it takes, time passes anyway.
- Enjoy sneezing without crossing your legs.
- Forgive yourself.
- Accept that you are a late bloomer–do you really want to “Peak” in your 20’s?
- Don’t spend your hours wishing they would pass quickly–you never walk that way again.
- Love will find you–do not waste any energy looking for it.
- Nap while you can and enjoy sleeping in on the weekends. You really don’t sleep much after 34.
- Value all the amazing people you are going to meet–get rid of the toxic ones sooner rather than later
- You CAN say NO!
- Learn the guitar, you will always wish you did!
- Just face it, the only thick, dark hair you will ever grow is on your legs, eyebrows and chin……
- Learn to be happy with enough–Enough is plenty!
- Don’t waste a single cent on tanning beds! You will never, ever tan. You will end up with lightbulb burns on your buttocks and brown spots on your face!
- Loathing your loneliness is silly! There will come a day when all you wish for is being able to pee without an audience.
- You will try every hair color you can think of, then settle on your natural brown.
- You will have good bosses and bad bosses-quit! There are plenty of low-paying jobs out there just for you!
- Feel what you are feeling–running from guilt, pain and fear make them grow.
- Don’t worry so much–it all works out in the end!
So that is pretty much it–I guess I would tell her to invest in Google, Yahoo and Apple and to invent Facebook, but oh well.
I wonder what 61 year old Sara will have to tell me? I hope I make it to find out!